In these past months I have been having some experiences involving my sleep or moreless the plane between my dreamstate and consciousness.  I feel as though I have woken up from a deep sleep and while I'm lying in bed, I experience the sensation of feeling my paralyzed body again.  I then go on to move my legs up and down off of my bed.  While doing so, I get extremely overwhelmed and excited and think as though I have regained my ability to walk again.  Then I tell myself that I can't move my legs and that I'm paralyzed.  That thought leads to the conclusion that I'm sleeping and of course I wake up.  As soon as I reach a full state of consciousness, I have feelings of disbandment, anger and then sadness.  I feel as though I'm holding on to my past like Karma itself.

Yet another experience today.  I took a quick "Power Nap" and it happened again.  I was reclined in my Med-Lift chair and I dreamed that I woke up and that I could move my legs again.  Right away, I realized I was sleeping so while still in my dream, I wanted to make sure it was only a dream that gives me the use of my legs.  So I lifted my legs off of the foot rest and set them on the floor.  I then forced myself to open my eyes to reach a full state of consciousness.  And, of course it hit me like normal when I saw my legs were still on the foot rest.  Rather than letting it get to me at that time, I closed my eyes and fell back asleep and found myself right back in the same dream.  I knew it was a dream state of mind, but rather than waking up, I stood up in my chair and walked around my apartment.  I felt the floor as I walked in my feet, I felt my pants brushing against my legs as I walked...  and I saw my kitchen counter from 5' 11" for the 1st time...  and I saw my bathroom from 5' 11" for the 1st time...  and I saw my bed from 5' 11" for the 1st time.  I remembered seeing the world from that perspective again.  I knew I was dreaming, but it felt so real.  I skipped through my living room laughing in excitement, I felt myself for the 1st time in a year and a half and noticed my abdomen was as if I had never gained any weight.  This opened my eyes to reality and I found myself sitting in my Med-Lift recliner chair again.  Except this time, I felt not negative emotions, but thought positively and I am optimistic about this happening again.  It is like a vacation in my mind.